she went quietly.
i’m sure she had the best of intentions,
and though we can’t be sure exactly how she went,
perhaps negativity and anxiety swallowed her whole.

but last night,
somewhere around 5 or 6 pm,
debbie downer was letting light pour in from the big screen.
old fotos of life for the last few years literally flashed before her eyes
and she had a realization:
life is pretty damn good.

who would’ve known that apple tv she thought was unnecessary would come so in handy.
foto after foto, in no particular order, gave her glimpses into her life.
from wedding, to baby, to dating, memories flooded her little anxious and worried and negative heart…

and debbie died.

{and the happy normal human that used to live here
came home.}

i’m so grateful to be me.
i’m grateful to be living here,
however small this place,
for however short a time.
and to know where we are headed
finally.
i’m grateful to have my little family with me,
who make it so fun and worth it.
who, as it turns out, are the 2 most easiest to love.
i’m grateful to a heavenly father who sends me
wake-up calls so i can be more productive this year.
rome wasn’t built in a few minutes,
and neither is a home.
someday
is perfectly fine with me.
my theme for 2012: 
joy in the journey