they told me i would meet my little man and fall in love with him.

but they didn’t tell me i would fall in love with you all over again too.

i don’t know how i would have gotten through the past few weeks and days without you.

the hormonal/emotional train is coming to an end,

but you rode it like a champ.

and i know i will look back on this first 10 days of motherhood

and just think of every moment of anxiety

{of which there were many}

and think of how bubbly, positive, and supportive you were.

after we got home from the hospital, and i felt spent,

you came home with these…

the flowers were beautiful,

{the lilies are my fave}

and the movie was a nice touch.

{i had been calling boss “froggie”/been wanting to own it}

it may seem silly,

but this gesture meant a whole lot to me.

you jumped right in from the second he was here to change diapers,

hold and love on him,

and i know it has been so tiring up in here…

and every time i went in to feed boss,

you always followed along so you could be my support

and rub my feet or hold me

as i sat cross-eyed in pain and weeping*.

i can’t even think about it without crying…

you make me feel beautiful,

even though i am still swollen in all sorts of places

and haven’t done my hair in a week…

i hate that you had to go back to work so soon,

but i love that you have done it all with a huge dad-like grin on your face

and i can’t wait to live out this next phase with you and our little guy.

makes me think of the love note you left me before we moved to Cali,
just after we knew B was coming…

thanks for everything and then some,

love,

*{side note: the breastfeeding is going worlds better.

on sunday i was running a fever and i had lumps in my breasts.

we made a few phone calls,

and took some advice on how to avoid the mastitis

that was steadily approaching, and we are now in business.

thanks everyone for the support

and advice on this one.

yet again, you experienced moms give me help and hope.}

2 Comments

Darci Cole on March 10, 2011 at 2:14 am

I am so glad to hear you are doing better! Enjoy the breastfeeding attachment. It was harder for me to give it up than it was for my boy, but we switched to watching movies and reading books together 🙂 You're doing a great job, and it sounds like Chris is too. Keep it up! It's only just begun, and it gets better and better from here on out!
Emily Moffat on March 11, 2011 at 7:54 pm

So glad all is going well and better. It was so fun to come see you last weekend. Have I mentioned that yet? Love yer faces.

dear cc,