my baby is [the length of] a carrot
i thought the black and orange to be fitting for halloween this week…
up until these past few weeks
life has gone as usual,
but something shifted and it happened fast.
i stay up at night worrying about how soon to potty train and what diapers are best and what the name of that cream is that i am supposed to use that will make feeding my child not make me want to chop off my boobs…
and with the promise of paint coming on the walls tomorrow morning
i worry about where everything is going to go in this small space!
not much room for a crib and a glider and a changing table…
i worry about the quilts that need to be made and i worry that if i start quilting, how ever will i keep up that dreadfully expensive and time-sucking hobby and raise a newborn!
the good news is,
i have registered. 
 for some reason it settles my mind to “pretend shop”
and feel like my bases are covered.
…but that doesn’t stop me from looking at baby things all day to decipher between the reviews of the best car seats and strollers
…calm down, meg, its gonna be jus fine…