when my favorite teacher i ever had,
asked me to write my mission statement in my senior year of high school,
one of the questions we had to answer to end the paper was

“are you about the journey or the destination?”

i thought long and hard about it. 
i worried that i would choose wrong and that i would later read her red writing,
“oh…that’s interesting…” and i would feel so stupid.

so for days, and long after i had finished the rest of the paper,
i sat ruminating the words journey and destination…

ultimately, i realized i am about the journey. 
i love the process of school and roadtrips,
and being pregnant…

…just as much as i do graduating, vacationing, and being a mom.
and because i know where i came from and where i am headed,
i am also about the destination.

so, as an 18-year old, i wrote,

and i let her try to decipher what i meant by that.

she picked up on it, right away.
and her red writing took up the entire next page telling me so.

i have thought about that a lot over the years.
i want to be happy now, and enjoy the bumps that life is throwing at me,
while working toward that big huge goal that will drive me to be better.

so its the perfect theme for me this year.
to remind me to stay grounded, humble, and focused.

i just finished writing a mini-rant about how frustrated i am.
i felt better.

but it would be no fun to read for anyone.

knowing that are are so many scammers in the world
trying to ruin my life doesn’t help you, and it doesn’t help me.

but i realized, writing about it, and deleting it, did.

cc and i have been reminding each other to stay positive.
“joy in the journey” he’ll say.

and i need the reminder sometimes.

not even 2 weeks in, and i am already wanting pity for my problems.

turns out, if i don’t find a place to live in 2 weeks, i will still live.
i might literally be homeless this time, but fine.
and it will be an adventure we will remember.

that’s it, good stories for my grandkids, that’s what i’m about.
and the journey.

i’m about that too.