in the back of my mind, i always have a bad feeling that he will forget.
that something will come up,
he’ll be too busy.

and days like mother’s day will just be a memory.

but he doesn’t forget.

and today,
he gave me a garden.

it’s not a house, but my outdoor sanctuary of 10sq ft sure helps it feel home-y.

my emotions have been floating all week
when i have thought of this out-of-body experience.
i just had the thought again a few days ago.
it’s like it hits me in my gut and i feel almost nervous when i realize:
i’m this kid’s mom!

i’m the one in charge of his physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual well-being.
its a job i don’t take lightly, 
and yet light is all i feel.
it is the most rewarding, entertaining, and uplifting job i’ve had.
and today was near bliss.

dear boston, 

thanks for letting me hold and kiss and cuddle with you all day,
for those larger-than-life adoring eyes  
that smiled at me to tell me you approve of me. 

because deep down i know you will grow up 
to be a big guy who won’t want to cuddle. 
not with me.

you will someday leave home. 
but if i do my job right, 
you might be the kind of guy to get up at 4 in the morning, 
just to plant your wife a garden.

love,

mom