have you ever found yourself in a phase of life,

completely new,

and suddenly you couldn’t recall life before?

like when you got to high school.

felt like you were always there,

and that you would never get out.

nothing mattered outside of your high school world…

like college.

never. ended.

and while there, high school was a blur.

i can’t remember what it was like to not be a clifford.

i forgot what it felt like to wonder and worry and imagine.

the last few years are hard to pull up.

at least all of the bad stuff feels erased.

and i thank God for the tender mercy that that is.

[clifford people. at the river in payson.]