i have been doing some spring cleaning on the computer the past few days
and trying to back up all the bagillions of fotos that we have so ya know…
if 2012 shuts down everything, at least i will have my 100 gigs worth of the
same picture of my child.

thanks, dad, for the hard-drive cause i am now officially safe and up-to-date.

but of all the pictures i have been sifting through,
these are the ones that eat my insides a little.

these were just after losing about 15lbs {newlywed 15…}  so i could…
well, gain 40 more! 

and gaining 40 lbs was never so much fun!
but now that i am in the swing of doing what i do now in my new life,
{obviously not spending days at the beach by myself…}
i am trying to get back my dignity.

see what we are doing about it here.

i am doing pretty good so far, and today,
i needed that boost to remind me i need to get back to the old me. 
the one that likes going out and dressing up and feeling cute.

sheesh that sounds so self-absorbed.
alas, here i go…

cc already told me at the end of all of this i can buy a new fabulous swimsuit…
if that isn’t motivation enough!