i remember the exact moment that i realized everything was going to be different.

we were sitting on the couch, just cuddled up ready to watch a show. our nightly routine after making dinner, catching up, and whining about being so big and pregnant and uncomfortable…

a fear came over me that this little part of us wasn’t going to exist anymore.
this romantical quietness of being just us.

i remember cc got up to grab something, and when he came back i was in tears.
{granted, i WAS very pregnant…}

i grabbed him so tight and made him promise that we come first.
this partnership, this marriage. it has to come first.

we were diving head-first into a canyon without a parachute or a guidebook.
i just need to know i have something to hold on to.

he agreed. i’m sure he laughed a little and told me to calm down. that life would be just as it was. {and he’s right, for the most part, it is}

it is one of those moments i don’t think i will forget. and i think about it every so often when life gets ahead of us. when we fail to remember who is the boss around here.

a few weeks ago i was feeling a little hollow. we were going through the motions, we were being good parents and focusing on our child. it was taking all of my time, attention, energy.
when he came home from work, i was in pjs. disheveled, ugly, and expecting a reward for my lack of concern for my serious vitamin D deficiency.

with that same gut-tied fear we were losing grip for a minute, i told him we need a little more romance around here.

and its funny how immediate and apparent the change was.

one of the best bits of marriage advice i ever got was from a family friend. she quoted from “the care and keeping of men” by dr. laura {that i haven’t read}  who says:

“there are 3 things men need to survive: food, sex, and a girlfriend.”

she’s right. when did that fun “girlfriend” become so….. momish?

on sunday, a teacher used this comic in a lesson on marriage:

when she shared it, all of the women sighed {as if to say, “see, men, that’s what we need!”}
then she said it could also be reversed. they need us just as much as we need them to help get through the day.

it takes two, they tell me.

yesterday he came home for lunch and i had my favorite pre-preg jeans on {that finally fit!}
i didn’t even expect to see him and i had makeup on. hair done.  {phew-lucky}
he whistled and snapped in a z at me.

gee, its good to be back.