me, for the past 10-ish months…

when we went for our 2-week visit to the pediatrician, 
my mom was in town and the doc asked about my health… 
he said, “no one probably needs to remind you to drink water… 
i am sure you are plenty thirsty….
{right, of course…} 
…but be sure you are eating all day long… graze. 
when you think about eating, do it. 
don’t hold back.
{cough.}
woops.
here is the truth.
ironically, the one time in my life that i can “let go,”
eat what i want and be excused for my weight for a while…
i have no appetite.
i don’t know if it is just because i am running around trying to see what all i can accomplish in a day in my nap-time slots,
my general lack of energy because of said running,
or because this is all just a sick joke.
yeah- i know, i am supposed to drink a ton and eat a lot
to be a champ at the breastfeeding thing.
and i will say, i do a pretty decent job at the water… 
i bank between 90oz to a gallon, which is just fine…
it isn’t cause i am always thirsty though.
but i feel like i have to force myself to eat.
so how has my child already grown almost 4 pounds…?
no idea.

a few weeks ago, on a whim,
we bought a bagillion of those cheap,  
pre-fab pasta-type meals.

every night was, “so……pasta?”
we felt disgusting.
we did do some saver-conscious shopping this week
and i am back on the meal-plan track…
so we have more legit meals and food around the house now. 

sheesh– that only took forever.
maybe it will help me be a better eater…
maybe it won’t…